day 20 I don't have love

Thank you God for letting me know that I do not have love through 1Corinthians 13.
I really don't have love, I am nothing.
I need to realize more you, and your love, and my sin.

please, help me, and teach me, and guide me.
please, God help me understand your true love and you. I am still seek myself.
I am not patient since i don't know how you are patient to me.
I am not kind since i don't know how you are kind to me.
i envy since my focus is on me since I do not have love for others.
i boast since i am arrogant, and i think i have power to do myself without you.
I am proud of me inner heart since i think i can do something without you.
i am rude to others since i consider myself better than others.
i have self-seeking since i am selfish.
i am easily angered since i judge others all the time.
i keep thinking wrong things since i do not depend on you.
i delight in evil but do not rejoice the truth since i have my own standard and am weak.
love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
however, i always do not protect, trust, hope, and persevere.

God, help me love you and others with your true love.

In Jesus name. Amen.